ambition

"the motivation for me is them telling me what i can not be." -pharell jay-z

realization

i just came to a realization, one that everyone else seemed to have already known. i guess you gotta learn things for yourself ya kno. well i know now. I trust myself because you cant trust anyone but yourself. now i dont mean this in the most blunt way. I do trust some. but i mostly mean this relationship wise. I mean that with my heart, i only trust myself because i know i love myself and i know that you dont love me. i made the mistake of forgetting that but never again. =] realization

bit your tongue

ok. my parents, in particular my father, has been making some very interesting comments and complaints against myself and other family members. I find it sooo hard to bit my tongue and say nothing. im trying to lower my tension in my house hold. and thought i will be 18 ,three months to be exact, and none of it will matter, i say nothing except "ok". sucks for my mom though cuz she'll still be here when im gone.

3 things

three things you will always need: ambition, motivation and fashion sense..everything else stems for them. ----quote me

wow. haven't been here in a while. i guess ive been busy. but im gonna make a promise to myself to keep writing. hopefully its on my blog but if not it will be on napkins and notebook sheets.